I am sorry to hear how it is going for you. There really isn't enough info in this post to say too much. Just for curiosity reasons, I would like to know more about your game. Rules and conditions you are playing? Spread and ramp? Play all or some variation of wong out or in? Is any of this provided somewhere, like maybe another thread?
I mean, for me, $2000 of EV is about a week and a half. I try to accumulate $1500 EV a week. So losing what $4800 in a week and a half? Happens to me all the time. I lose that in a day very frequently. But that is really apples to oranges as I am sure we are not playing close to the same levels. That is why I would like to know more details.
I want to comment on your attitude.
Yikes! I mean I sort of appreciate that you are willing to keep going (assuming you are playing a winning game, which is what I want to find out with more details from you). I see many players, especially newish, that start out with such and such a bankroll, configure a game plan, spread, ramps plan of attack, claiming such and such RoR. Then after losing part of that bankroll, they are unwilling to continue. Well that means they were NEVER playing to that full bankroll and were in fact playing to a much higher RoR. Don't get me wrong, I know if that is all the money you have or even just very important to you and hard to replace, it is mentally difficult to push forward. I am just saying a player needs to be honest with himself from the beginning.
So while I appreciate that you are in fact pushing forward playing with the entire BR that you initially set out, this defeatist attitude, that you are just going to keep going to you lose it all sucks!
I don't exactly know how your mental state plays into things. I am relatively sure that having a negative attitude doesn't change the math,
, but it just might make you susceptible to more mistakes and losing discipline with things like "chasing losses".
I can feel your pain though. I have experienced the ups and downs and I have been where I am getting kind of frustrated with an extended losing period and all of the sudden things change, almost at the snap of a finger. It's a strange game like that.
Here is a little story from my experiences. Without checking records, I am going to say it was 2013, maybe 2014. The year starts out very negative. I am down 32k in early April. Not the worst backward slide I have experienced but it might have been at the time. It was definitely the worst start to a year I have had yet. So everything is going wrong. I just seem to lose every max bet, every double down. Not "every" of course, but far greater than my share and it sure felt like "every". That's what happens when it is going bad. I keep pushing on, day after day and let me tell you it becomes harder to get motivated during these types of runs.
Next thing you know I had a decent winning day. Then a couple in a row. Pretty good week. The next thing I knew I was in the midst of a 5 week 115k winning period. And I have never experienced another such period in such a short time...actually nothing even close. Now I was literally winning every max bet and double down or so it seemed. I was winning so fast and furious that I had to take a break for a couple weeks, sort of back myself off, just to avoid drawing too much heat and scrutiny.
Second half of the year I won about 30k, and ended the year at about 113k profit, which was I believe my second best year. It also means my entire years profit came during those 5 weeks.
My point: You just never know with this game. You don't know when things are going to turn and they can do so on a dime. The variance is great. Anyone who doesn't understand this doesn't understand this this game. All you can do is play a winning game, trust in the math and be patient. But I will tell you that going through a couple of these swings a few times helps a great deal. You begin to know what to expect.