Dopple said:
I will surely be due to win alot when I go back. They owe me.
You are never "due" to anything. Cards don't have a memory, and they don't remember that they "owe" you a favor. If you're down you're down - nothing is going to change it.
But most importantly you must understand, if you arere overbetting you are likely to bust every time you make a bet. The reason is: while wins and losses are statistically independent (to a very high degree), the amount you are able to bet is not independent at all. If you are overbetting you will have no chance of chasing your losses in the long run, because you have less bankroll available to bet.
Take a coin flip 10% in your favor. If you bet 90% of your $1000 bankroll, you cannot "chase" this loss of $900 with 10% of your bankroll remaining, when you continue to bet again $90 from your remaining $100.
Instead, bet 5% of your bankroll and grind your loss of $900 out.